418 Day 18 of a 40-Day Practice

 

DAY EIGHTEEN OF A FORTY-DAY PRACTICE

MY MISSION STATEMENT - I am devoted, dedicated, committed to experiencing Your Presence, Father consciously, consistently within me and everywhere present. I want to know, to realize, to live for Your Will for me, empowered by Your loving grace. My mission in now clear, I need, I want to share all I am given with whomever You Will, Father. I look to You as my only Source to provide me with everyone and everything it takes to carry out the Mission You gave me. Thank You.

TODAY: EMOTIONAL EQUIVALENT

When I first came to the door of A.A. I believed that I experienced primarily one emotion that was anger. About six months in the Program and sober I was going to all the meetings I could. I hung out with a group of A.A. workers that loved this way of life. I was hearing more about solutions than the disease. I had a realization that my anger was a Siamese twin of fear, which cleared up a big area for me. My family believed that no "man" should ever show fear, so I stuffed my fear, which turned quickly to anger and maybe resentment.

I had heard and later went with the idea there are only two emotions, love and fear.

Then I read that my great Hero had said that we are to love our enemies, the question is how am I to love my enemies if they are some form of fear? Then I remember how to change the nature of fears. When I turn and face a fear it will change its nature, it will be one of two things. It will be a real problem that calls for a solution or acceptance. Or it is just another one of my illusions. When I am working toward or seeking a solution there is little negative emotion left to deal with. However, if it is another of my illusions I am likely to charge it with negative energy. Today as soon as a fear presents its self, I embrace it (an expression of love) and ask it to reveal what it is. Next, I take whatever steps needed to surrender it to our Boss.

As I opened to my deepest loving emotions I awaken then I put into practice the Six Loves. I am learning that I am able to practice, to share at least one of these loves most of the time and when I do I am open to love, for love, by love. (See the Workshop on Six Loves)

QUESTIONS

What have been your most fulfilling emotions?

What has been your most fearful emotion to deal with?