418 Day 18 of a 40-Day Practice



MY MISSION STATEMENT - I am devoted, dedicated, committed to experiencing Your Presence, Father consciously, consistently within me and everywhere present. I want to know, to realize, to live for Your Will for me, empowered by Your loving grace. My mission in now clear, I need, I want to share all I am given with whomever You Will, Father. I look to You as my only Source to provide me with everyone and everything it takes to carry out the Mission You gave me. Thank You.


When I first came to the door of A.A. I believed that I experienced primarily one emotion that was anger. About six months in the Program and sober I was going to all the meetings I could. I hung out with a group of A.A. workers that loved this way of life. I was hearing more about solutions than the disease. I had a realization that my anger was a Siamese twin of fear, which cleared up a big area for me. My family believed that no "man" should ever show fear, so I stuffed my fear, which turned quickly to anger and maybe resentment.

I had heard and later went with the idea there are only two emotions, love and fear.

Then I read that my great Hero had said that we are to love our enemies, the question is how am I to love my enemies if they are some form of fear? Then I remember how to change the nature of fears. When I turn and face a fear it will change its nature, it will be one of two things. It will be a real problem that calls for a solution or acceptance. Or it is just another one of my illusions. When I am working toward or seeking a solution there is little negative emotion left to deal with. However, if it is another of my illusions I am likely to charge it with negative energy. Today as soon as a fear presents its self, I embrace it (an expression of love) and ask it to reveal what it is. Next, I take whatever steps needed to surrender it to our Boss.

As I opened to my deepest loving emotions I awaken then I put into practice the Six Loves. I am learning that I am able to practice, to share at least one of these loves most of the time and when I do I am open to love, for love, by love. (See the Workshop on Six Loves)


What have been your most fulfilling emotions?

What has been your most fearful emotion to deal with?