433 Day 33 of a 40-Day Practice

DAY THIRTY-THREE OF A FORTY-DAY PRACTICE

MY MISSION STATEMENT - I am devoted, dedicated, committed to experiencing Your Presence, Father consciously, consistently within me and everywhere present. I want to know, to realize, to live for Your Will for me, empowered by Your loving grace. My mission in now clear, I need, I want to share all I am given with whomever You Will, Father. I look to You as my only Source to provide me with everyone and everything it takes to carry out the Mission You gave me. Thank You.

TODAY: MY PERSONAL "REALITY"

It is important that I have a working understanding of what my made up personal "reality" is or is not. My personal "reality" is so familiar I have to call it into question otherwise like all habits it will run on automatic. I stored a lifetime of facts and illusions as my personal "reality", after repeated use these become habits. I believed each one as real having value until I did not any more. To give these up was like part of me was dying. I could not depart form them without pain and fear even after realizing their valueless-ness. My personal "reality" filters my conscious experience of life. It must be called into question and then dealt with or our past experience will equal our future experience. I seek spiritual guidance and answers to my on going questions: What’s the purpose for this…? Am I experiencing Reality or my personal "reality"?

Now that I realize I have a choice I can make, I am not doomed to live the rest of my life driven by automatic responses? I am learning that I need to accept the things I cannot change, like other people for example. I need the courage to change the things I can, like my personal "reality". To do this I need the wisdom to know what I can change and what I cannot. Our Program offers us a set of tools in which we can chip away all that is not our true self. Most of the time the beginning of healing, change came after I hit my bottom. Then I was able to surrender what I need to, holding nothing back from my new Source. I stop blaming anyone or anything for my defects. With full ownership I have the power of choice and I open to a Spiritual solution, which transformed my defects into loving, wise and useful assets. (See Al's Spiritual Transformation)

QUESTIONS

What area have you been trying to let go of but just cannot?

What do you experience when you surrendered bit-by-bit, event-by-event, and person-by-person?

What does a totally surrender, holding nothing back mean to you?