144 Was I Awake or Sleeping?

 144 Was I Awake or Sleeping?

I have thoughts, ideas and feeling that come to me early in the morning. This experience often proves useful on my serendipity journey. I give my alms, I pray and meditate, I fast from what is not, and I feast on what is. I forgive all; my eye is single and full of light. I lay up treasures in Heaven, within my secret, silence, invisible place. I worship our Father in spirit (consciousness) and truth (Reality). I serve You Father and Yours all I can by sharing the Program. Then I get out of bed. Was I awake or was I sleeping? These are wonderful ideas and ideals, right, then why don’t I live them consciously and consistently? I know our true nature is love, so why don’t I love everyone? I know an Invisible Means; a Higher Power created us all, and preserves each of us. Why don’t I quickly turn within to that Higher Power for everything I need? I know my higher self and those who love me want me to love more than I am. I am loving, praying, meditating, giving, forgiving, worshipping our Father the best I can today. Now I remember our Program says; "We are not saints. The point is that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection." (Alcoholics Anonymous p 60) Maybe I will become a saint next week.


1. Has your Program journey caused you to reach perfection or perfectionism?

2. Are you disappointed with yourself because you are not as far along as you thought you should be?

Random Awakening

For years I have experienced what is called the Dark Night of the Senses where everything in this human condition fails to bring fulfillment for long, at best I may get a temporary fix.