239 Unleashing my Negativity

 239 Unleashing my Negativity

The unleashing of my negativity started its latest round Sunday with the TV program 60 Minutes. It confirmed my fears that our world leaders are so powerless in the presence of the worldwide violence and corruption. I realized that I am also powerless to carry out my "mission" effectively. This week that negative mind-set carried over into all my sharing, workshops and one-on-one. The harder I tried the harder I prayed the worse it get. As I witnessed the destructive behavior of someone I work with and powerless to change their direction, perhaps it has always been as it is now. I have turned my back on negative stuff because I know how powerless I am. I hate the negative stuff it brings up from within my own storehouse. I know it is me blocking His grace but I am powerless to make a difference. In this morning reading I am reminded that fear is a bluffer and if we will call its bluff it will collapse. Well I have, I am, I will call its bluff. Even in my powerlessness and unhealed negative stuff I am choosing to call that bluff. I am confronted once again with the fear that my life is useless and not enough to effectively make a good difference. In that negative mind-set I need to love my enemies all are housed within me. Well I am seeing the useless side of Al Duplex. His rent has not been paid for a longtime. I feel like kicking him out, but I better leave that to our Boss.

Random Awakening

My morning prep work is filled with suggestions that have the same message; to let our Father have His way with me. “