310 Mercy and Grace

310 Mercy and Grace

Prior to AA I was filled with jealousy of those who were able to successfully getting on in life, those who had a successful family, friends, finance and on and on. I did not have an inferiority complex. I was inferior. I was inferior in all areas of my life so you could say my inferiority was complex, that is having many parts. I did try to be responsible to my family and my business but I continued to fail. I was forced to stay sober for medical reasons. I was unable to produce while working for my dad and brother’s, they fired me. I had just remarried and had very little money and no skills. I found a car dealer who let me work off his car lot. I was forced to learn the car business from the ground up. I got a car dealer’s license and went to work. I became a work-aholic. For a while I did well, then I started drinking again and all my inferiority returned. I had no real friends to turn to. I could not handle my family or business responsibilities. I tried but I was unable to recover on my own. I was angry (which turned out to be fear) and felt sorry for myself. I could get some relief drinking but that stop working and I wanted to die and I was inferior at that also. By God’s mercy and grace I was brought to AA. My inferiority was a blessing, I knew I was a total failure at life and that cause me to be open to Your grace and mercy Father. I am filled with a love and gratitude beyond words. My life has meaning, now I can make a good difference. I am dedicated, devoted and committed to do Your Loving Will Father, I am given all it takes to do so. Thy Love be done.

Random Awakening

In this human condition our power is most often determined by our decisions.