having trouble with personal relationships, we couldn't control
our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression,
we couldn't make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness,
we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldn't seem to be
of real help to other people.
These words remind me that I have more problems than alcohol,
that alcohol is only a symptom of a more pervasive disease.
When I stopped drinking I began a lifetime process of recovery
from unruly emotions, painful relationships, and unmanageable
situations. This process is too much for most of us without
help from a Higher Power and our friends in the Fellowship.
When I began working the Steps of the A.A. program, many of
these tangled threads unraveled but, little by little, the
most broken places of my life straightened out. One day at
a time, almost imperceptibly, I healed. Like a thermostat
being turned down, my fears diminished. I began to experience
moments of contentment. My emotions became less volatile.
I am now once again a part of the human family.