Everyday I stand at turning points. My thoughts and actions
can propel me toward growth or turn me down the road to old
habits and to booze. Sometimes turning points are beginnings,
as when I decide to start praising, instead of condemning
someone. Or when I begin to ask for help instead of
going it alone. At other times turning points are endings,
such as when I see clearly the need to stop festering resentments
or crippling self-seeking. Many shortcomings tempt me
daily; therefore, I also have daily opportunities to become
aware of them. In one form or another, many of my character
defects appear daily: self-condemnation, anger, running away,
being prideful, wanting to get even, or acting out of grandiosity.
Attempting half measures to
eliminate these defects merely paralyzes my efforts to change.
It is only when I ask God for help, with complete abandon,
that I become willing -- and able -- to change.