When I was still drinking, I couldn't respond to any of life's
situations the way other, more healthy, people could.
The smallest incident triggered a state of mind that believed
I had to have a drink to numb my feelings. But the numbing
did not improve the situation, so I sought further escape
in the bottle. Today I must be aware of my alcoholism.
I cannot afford to believe that I have gained control of my
drinking -- or again I will think I have gained control of
my life. Such a feeling of control is fatal to my recovery.