fear reduced or eliminated and having economic circumstances
improve, are two different things. When I was new in A.A.,
I had those two ideas confused, I thought fear would leave
me only when I started making money. However, another line
from the Big Book jumped off the page one day when I was chewing
on my financial difficulties: "For us, material well-being
always followed spiritual progress; it never preceded." (p.127).
I suddenly understood that this promise was a guarantee. I
saw that it put priorities in the correct order, that spiritual
progress would diminish that terrible fear of being destitute,
just as it diminished many other fears.
Today I try to use the talents God
gave me to benefit others. I've found that is what others
valued all along. I try to remember that I no longer work
for myself. I only get the use of the wealth God created,
I never have " owned " it. My life's purpose is much clearer
when I just work to help, not to possess.