I had been slipping away from the program for some time, but
it took a death threat from a terminal disease to bring me
back, and particularly to the practice of the Eleventh Step
of our blessed Fellowship. Although I had fifteen years of
sobriety and was still very active in the program, I knew
that the quality of my sobriety had slipped badly. Eighteen
months later, a checkup revealed a malignant tumor and a prognosis
of certain death within six months. Despair settled in when
I enrolled in a rehab program, after which I suffered two
small strokes which revealed two large brain tumors. As I
kept hitting new bottoms I had to ask myself why this was
happening to me. God allowed me to recognize my dishonesty
and to become teachable again. Miracles began to happen. But
primarily I relearned the whole meaning of the Eleventh Step.
My physical condition has improved dramatically but my illness
is minor compared to what I almost lost completely.