The concept of God was one that I struggled with during my
early years of sobriety. The images that came to me, conjured
from my past, were heavy with fear, rejection and condemnation.
Then I heard my friend Ed's image of a Higher Power: As a
boy he had been allowed a litter of puppies, provided that
he assume responsibility for their care. Each morning he would
find the unavoidable "by products" of the puppies on the kitchen
floor. Despite frustration, Ed said he couldn't get angry
because "that's the nature of puppies." Ed felt that God viewed
our defects and shortcomings with a similar understanding
and warmth. I've often found solace from my personal confusion
in Ed's calming concept of God.