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National
Committee on Alcoholism
Annual Meeting
Hotel Statler, New York City, N.Y.
March
30, 1956
Introduction
by the National Director of the National Committee on Alcoholism,
Mrs. Marty Mann.
Mr.
President, distinguished guests, ladies and gentlemen, I
had to have that formal beginning to find out if I had a
voice. This moment is of such import to me that I have been
fearful for a week that I would not be able to speak. Its
a moment Ive been waiting for a long time. The National
Committee on Alcoholism was founded on a proof. Unless there
had been proof that alcoholics could recover there could
have been no National Committee on Alcoholism. That proof
was available by 1944, the year of the founding of the Committee
because of what Alcoholics Anonymous had been doing for
nine years. And the work that Alcoholics Anonymous had been
doing for nine years is very largely due to a recovery of
an individual. Everything has to start somewhere.
We
no longer look upon it as a divine plan, I think we should
as divine plans require instruments, instruments that we
can see and touch and hear, that can reach us. Such an instrument
was found in a man who had suffered deeply and terribly
from alcoholism and he was able to recover and he discovered
that in order to keep his recovery he had to share it, he
had to pass it on. I like to describe this as the discovery
of a constructive chain reaction.
Something
was set in motion back in November 1934, that was to become
one of the great sources for good in our time. I was very
fortunate in coming in contact with this force when I most
desperately needed it. It was not easy for me to change
the pattern of my living from a negative one to a constructive
one and I had a little trouble from time to time in the
beginning in attempting my new life. The most seriously
difficulty I had was met by this same man who sought me
out and dug me out and whom I couldnt refuse to see
and when he spoke to me he said something that Ill
never forget. Something that is having is culmination here
today. He asked me if I wanted to stop drinking. I said,
"yes." He put his arm around me and he said, "Im
glad because we have a long way to go together." Neither
of us knew back in 1939 how far that road led or where it
was going to lead but we are still traveling that road together
and its lead up all the way, up and on.
I
believe that the contribution that was made by this instrument,
if you like, is a contribution past description, past telling.
I believe that it was largely through that contribution
which produced living proof that we have been able to arrive
at a meeting such as today where we have been able to bring
together representatives of all the professional disciplines
who are happily and gladly working in this field as this
wasnt always true fifteen years ago. But we able to
get great names in medicine and psychiatry and social work
and psychology and in public health to be present at a meeting
like this, to take part in what we are doing, to join hands
with that little band of recovered alcoholics to help lick
this problem.
Alcoholics
Anonymous couldnt do it alone. We couldnt expect
any other victims of a particular affliction to carry the
whole burden of doing something about that particular disease
and we shouldnt expect it in this field. To lick a
problem as complex, as vast and as devastating as alcoholism
requires the cooperation of everyone of us, of every area
of our life. To have that cooperation we had to have evidence
that it could produce them. That evidence exists in the
growing ranks of Alcoholics Anonymous and that truth exists
because back in 1934, one man got sober and allowed himself
to be used as the great instrument in spreading this word
of hope. In my books he is one of the greatest men of our
times. I give you my friend, my sponsor, the reason why
I am here, Bill.
Address
by Bill W.
Well
folks, our world is certainly a world of contrast, it was
only a few year ago that Westbrook Pegler wrote a piece
in which he described Dr. Bob and me as "the wet brain
founders of Alcoholics Anonymous." But very serious
and very happily too, I think that the A.A.s present
in and out of this Committee and everywhere join in with
Lois and me and are able to say that this is one of the
finest hours that has yet to come to us.
Some
people say that destiny is a series of events held together
by a thin thread of change or circumstance. Other people
say that destiny is composed of a series of events strung
on a cord of cause and effect and still others say that
the destiny of good work is often the issue of the will
of God and that he forges the links and brings the events
to pass. Ive been asked to come here to tell the story
of A.A. and in that story, everyone here I am sure can find
justification for either of those points of view.
But,
I want to tell more than the story of A.A., this time. I
was beset, I must confess, by a certain reluctance and the
reluctance issues out of this fact, of course everybody
is fairly familiar with the fact that I once suffered from
alcoholism, but people are not so wise to the fact that
I suffer also from schizophrenia, split personality. I have
a personality say as a patriarch of A.A., founding father
if you like and I also have a personality as an A.A. member
and between these personalities is a terrific gulf. You
see, a founding father of A.A. has to stand up to the A.A.
Tradition which says that you must not endorse anything
or anybody or even say good things about your friends on
the outside or even of Beemans chewing gum lest it be an
endorsement. So as the father of A.A. I am very strictly
bound to do nothing but tell the story of our society. But
as an A.A. member like all the rest, I am an anarchist who
revels in litter so Im really going to say what I
damn please. So, if only you will receive me as Mr. Anonymous,
one of the poor old drunks still trying to get honest!
Now
to our narrative and to the first links in the chain of
events that has led us to this magnificent hour. I was by
no means the first link in this chain and only one of very
many. I think the founder business ought to be well deflated
and Im just going to take a minute or two to do it.
As
a fact, the first link in the chain was probably forged
about twenty-five years ago in the office of a great psychiatrist,
Carl Jung. At that time he had as a patient a certain very
prominent American businessman. They worked together for
a year. My business friend Rolland was a very grim case
of alcoholism and yet under the doctors guidance he
thought he was going to find release. He left the doctor
in great confidence but shortly, he was back drunk. Said
he to Dr. Jung, "what now, Youre my court of
last resort." The doctor looked at him and said, "I
thought that you might be one of those rare cases that could
be touched with my art, but you arent. I have never
seen," continued doctor Jung, one single case of alcoholism
recover, so grave as yours under my tutelage." Well,
to my friend Rolland this was tantamount to a sentence of
death. "But doctor," said he, "is there no
other course, nothing else." "Yes," said
Dr. Jung, "there is something. There is such a thing
as a transforming spiritual experience." "Well,"
Rolland beamed, "after all Ive been a vestryman
in the Episcopal Church, Im a man of faith."
"Oh, Dr. Jung said, "thats fine so far as
it goes but it has to go a lot deeper. Im speaking
of transforming spiritual experiences." "Where
would I find such a thing, asked Rolland. Dr. Jung said,
"I dont know, lighting strikes here or there,
it strikes any other place. We dont know why or how.
You will just have to expose yourself in the religion of
your own choice or a spiritual influence as best you can
and just try and ask and maybe it will be open to you."
So
my friend Rolland joined up with the Oxford Groups, the
sometimes Buchmanites of that day, first in London and then
came to New York and lo and behold the lighting did strike
and he found himself unaccountably released of his obsession
to drink.
After
a time he heard of a friend of mine, a chap we call Ebby,
who sojourned every summer in Vermont, an awful grim case,
he had driven his fathers bright, shiny new Packard
into the side of someones house. He had bashed into
the kitchen, pushing aside the stove and had said to the
startled lady there, "how about a cup of coffee."
The neighbors thought that this was enough and that he needed
to be locked up. He was taken before Judge Graves in Bennington,
Vermont, a place not too far from my home, by the way and
there our friend Rolland heard of it and gathering a couple
of Oxford Groupers together, one of them an alcoholic the
other just a two fisted drinker, they took Ebby in tow and
they inoculated him with very simple ideas: that he, Ebby,
could not do this job on his own resources, that he had
to have help; that he might try the idea of getting honest
with himself as he never had before; he might try the idea
of making a confession of his defects to someone; he might
try the idea of making restitution for harms done; he might
try the idea of giving of himself to others with no price
tag on it; agnostic he was, he might try the idea of praying
to whatever God there was. That was the essence of what
my friend Ebby abstracted from the Oxford Groups of that
day. True, we later rejected very much of the other things
they had to teach us. It is true that these principles might
have been found somewhere else but as it happens they were
found there.
Ebby
for a time got the same phenomenon of release and then he
remembered me. He was brought to New York and lodged at
Calvary Mission and soon called me up while I lay home drinking
in Brooklyn. I will never forget that day as suddenly he
stood in the areaway, I hadnt seen him for a long
time. By this time I knew something gravity of my plight.
I couldnt put my finger on it but he seemed strangely
changed, besides he was sober. He came in and began to talk.
I offered him some grog. I remember I had a big jug of gin
and pineapple juice there, the pineapple juice was there
to convince Lois that I wasnt drinking straight gin.
No, he didnt care for a drink. No, he wasnt
drinking. "Whats got into you," I asked.
"Well," he said, "Ive got religion."
Well, that was rough on me. Hes got religion! He had
substituted religious insanity for alcoholic insanity. Well,
I had to be polite so I asked, "what brand is it."
And, he said, "I wouldnt exactly call it a brand.
Ive come across a group of people who have sold me
on getting honest with myself; who sold me on the idea that
I am powerless over my problems and have taught me to help
others so Im trying to bring something to you, if
you want it. Thats it." So, in his turn, he transmitted
to me these simple ideas across the kitchen table.
Meanwhile,
another chain of events had been taking place. In fact,
the earliest link in that chain runs back to William James
who is sometimes called the father of modern psychology.
Another link in the chain was my own Doctor William Duncan
Silkworth, who I think will someday be counted as a medical
saint.
I
had the usual struggle with this problem and had met Dr.
Silkworth at Towns Hospital. He had explained in very simple
terms what my problem was: an obsession that condemned me
to drink against my will and increasing physical sensitivity
which guaranteed that I would go mad unless I could somehow
find release, perhaps through re-education. He taught me
the nature of the malady.
But
here I was, again drinking. But here was my friend talking
to me over the kitchen table. Already, you see, the elements
which lie today in the foundation of A.A. were already present.
The God of science in the persons of Dr. Silkworth and Dr.
Jung had said "No" on the matters of psychiatry,
psychology and medicine. They cant do it alone. Your
will power cant do it alone. So, the rug had been
pulled out from under Rolland Hazzard and Hazzard an alcoholic
had pulled the rug out from under Ebby and now he was pulling
it out from under me while quoting Dr. Jung and substantiating
what Dr. Silkworth had let leak back to me through Lois.
So,
the stage was really set and it had been some years in the
setting before it ever caught up with me. Of course, I had
balked at this idea of a power greater than myself, although
the rest of the program seemed sensible enough. I was desperate,
willing to try anything, but I still did gag on the God
business. Bulb at length, I said to myself as has every
A.A. member since, "who am I to say there is no God?
Who am I to say how I am going to get well?" Like a
cancer patient, I am now ready to do anything, to be dependent
upon any kind of a physician and if there is a great physician,
I had better seek him out.
So,
pretty drunk, I went back to Towns Hospital, was put to
bed and three days later my friend appears again. One alcoholic
talking to another across that strange powerful bond that
we can effect with each other. In his one hand and in the
hands of the doctor was hopelessness and on the other side
was hope. He went through his little list of principles;
getting honest, making restitution, working with other people,
praying to whatever God there was, then he left. When he
had gone, I sunk into a terrific depression, the like of
which I had never known and I suppose for a moment the last
vestiges of my prideful obstinacy were crushed out at great
depth and I cried out like a child, "now Ill
do anything, anything to get well," and with no faith
and almost no hope I again cried out, "if there is
a God, will he show himself." Immediately the place
lit up in a great light. It seemed to me that I was on a
mountain top, there was a sudden realization that I was
free, utterly free of this thing and as the ecstasy subsided
I am again on the bed and now I m surrounded by a
sense of presence and a mighty assurance and a feeling that
no matter how wrong things were, ultimately all would be
well. I thought to myself, so this is the God of the preacher.
From
that day to this, I have scarcely been tempted to drink,
so instantaneous and terrific was the release from the obsession.
At about the time of my release from the hospital, somebody
handed me a copy of William James book Varieties of
Religious Experience. Many of us disagree with James
pragmatic philosophy but I think that nearly all will agree
that this is a great text in which he examines these mechanisms.
And in that book of his, great numbers, the great majority
of these experiences took of f from a base of utter hopelessness.
In some controlling area of the individuals life he
had struck a wall and couldnt get under, around or
over. That kind of hopelessness was the forerunner of the
transforming experience and as I began to read those common
denominators stuck out of the cases cited by James.
I
began to wonder, yes, I fitted into that pattern but why
hadnt more alcoholics fitted into it before now? In
other words, what we needed was more deflation at depth
to lay hold of this transforming experience.
Then
comes Dr. Silkworth with the answer, those two little words:
the obsession and the allergy. Not such little words, big
words, the twin ogres of madness and death, of science pronouncing
its verdict of hopelessness so far as our own resources
were concerned. Yes, I had had that dose. That had perhaps
laid the ground. One alcoholic talking to another had convinced
me where no others had brought me any conviction.
I
began to race around madly trying to help alcoholics and
in gratitude I briefly joined the Oxford Group but they
were more interested in saving the world than other alcoholics.
That didnt last too long and I began to tell people
of this sudden mystic experience and I fear that I was preaching
a great deal and not one single drunk sobered up for a period
of six months.
Again,
comes the man of medicine, Dr. Silkworth and he said, "Bill,
youve got the cart before the horse. Why dont
you stop talking about this queer experience of yours and
of all this morality. Why dont you pour into these
people how medically sick they are and then, maybe coming
from you or with the identification you can get with these
other fellows, then maybe youll soften them up so
theyll buy this moral psychology.
About
that time I had been urged to get back into business and
quit being a missionary and I hooked onto a business deal
which took me to Akron, Ohio. The deal fell through and
for the first time I felt tempted to drink. I was in the
hotel with about ten dollars in my pocket and my new found
friends had disappeared. I thought to myself, gee, youd
better look for another alcoholic to work with. Then I realized
as never before how working with other alcoholics had played
such a great part in sustaining my original experience.
Well,
again friends came to the rescue. I went down to the lobby
and looked at the Church Directory and absentmindedly drew
my finger down the list of names and there appeared a rather
odd one, the Reverend Tunics. I said, "well, Ill
call up Tunics" and he turned out to be wonderful Episcopal
clergyman. I said that I was a drunk looking for another
drunk to work on and tried to explain why. The good man
showed some alarm as it wasnt everyday someone called
up with my request but the good man gave me a list of about
ten names, some of them Oxford Groupers. I called all of
these people up. Well, Sunday was coming and maybe they
would see me in Church, some were going out of town. I exhausted
that list, all but one. None had time nor cared very much.
Something not very strange under the circumstances so I
went down and took another look in the bar and something
said to me "you had better call here up." Her
name was Henrietta Seiberling and I took her to be the wife
of a tire tycoon out there who I had once met and I thought
that this lady certainly isnt going to want to see
me on a Saturday afternoon. But I called and she said, "come
right out, Im not an alcoholic but I think I understand."
This led to the meeting with Dr. Bob, one of my many copartners
in this enterprise and as Dr. Silkworth had suggested I
poured into him how sick we were and that produced his immediate
recovery.
I
went to live in the Smiths house and presently Bob
said, "Hadnt we better start working with alcoholics."
I said, "sure, I think we had" We found an opportunity
at City Hospital in Akron, who was being brought in with
D.T.s on a stretcher. Hed been hospitalized
six times in four months and couldnt even get home
without getting stewed. That was to be A.A. number three,
the first man on the bed. Dr. Bob and I went to see him
and he said, "Im too far gone and besides, Im
a man of faith. Nevertheless, we poured it into him, the
medical hopelessness of this thing so far as ones
own resources are concerned. We explained what had happened
to us, we made clear to him his future and the next morning
we came back and he was saying to his wife, "give me
my clothes, were going to get up and get out of here. These
are the men, they are the ones who understand." Right
then and there was formed the first A.A. group in the summer
of 1935. The synthesis in its main outline was complete.
But
Lord, we hadnt even started. The struggles of those
next few years. A wonderful thing to think about. Terribly
slow was our growth. We got way into 1939 before we had
produced even a hundred recoveries in Akron and in New York,
a few in Cleveland, Ohio. Then, in that year, the Cleveland
Plain Dealer ran pieces about us of such strength that the
few A.A. s in Cleveland were flooded with hundreds
of cases and that added one more needed ingredient. Up to
this time it had been deadly slow. Could this thing spread?
Could we get into mass production?
Well,
in a matter of months, twenty Clevelanders had sobered up
several hundred newcomers. But that required hospitalization
and we were not liked in the hospitals.
Now,
I come to the subject of this Committee, its relation
with A.A. and the linkage between us. Meanwhile, great events
were going on down here (New York), there had been in preparation
a book to be called Alcoholics Anonymous. As a precaution
we had made mimeograph copies to be passed around and one
of these copies was sent to a man who I consider to be one
of the greatest friends that this society can ever have,
Dr. Harry Tiebout, the onetime Chairman of this Committee.
Harry Tiebout was the man who got me before the medical
societies and that took great courage. Well, I m getting
ahead of my story.
So
Harry got one of the mimeographed copies of the A.A. book
and he hands it to a certain patient at the Blythewood Sanitarium
in Greenwich, Connecticut. The patient was a lady. She read
the book and it made her very mad so she threw it out the
window and got drunk. That was the first impact of Alcoholics
Anonymous. Harry got her sobered up and handed her the book
again and a phrase caught her eye, it was a trigger. "We
cannot live with resentments," the book said. This
time she didnt throw it out the window.
Presently
she came to our little meeting and you must remember that
we were still less than a hundred strong in the early part
of 1939 at our little Brooklyn house at 182 Clinton Street.
And she came back from that meeting to Greenwich and made
a remark that today is a classic in A.A. She said to a fellow
patient and sufferer and friend in the sanitarium, "Grennie,
were not alone anymore, this is it."
Well,
that was the beginning for Marty. Much help by Harry and
Mrs. Willey, the proprietor of the place. Marty started
the first group on the grounds of the sanitarium. She began
to frantically work with alcoholics and became the dean
of our women alcoholics. So our society had made two terrific
friends in Dr. Harry and Marty.
Now,
in the intervening years up to 1944, A.A. itself was in
a bad turmoil. The Saturday Post piece had been published
which caused 6,000 frantic inquiries to hit our post office
box here in New York, from all over the country, indeed,
all over the world. So then the great question was posed.
Could A.A. spread? Could it function? Could it hang together
with its enormous neurotic content that we have. We
just did not know. But again, it was do or die. In old Ben
Franklins words, "we would either hang together
or hang separately."
Out
of this group experience there began to evolve Traditions.
Traditions which had to do with A.A. s unity and function
and relation with the world outside and our relations to
such things as money, property, prestige, all that sort
of thing. The Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous, with you
folks, for the most part are familiar. Those principles
began to take shape, began to gather for us and little by
little, order began to come out of this seething mass of
drunks in their quest for sobriety.
By
now, the membership of the movement had run up into the
many thousands and as Marty observed, there was now proof
that it can be done. But we were still a long way from today.
A.A. still needed friends. Friends of medicine, friends
of religion, friends of the press. We had a handful but
we needed a lot of friends. The public needed to know what
sort of malady this was and that something could be done
about it. This Committee, much like Alcoholics Anonymous
is notable not only for what it has done in its own sphere
but for what it has set in motion.
I
remember very well when this Committee started. It brought
me in contact with our great friends at Yale, the courageous
Dr. Haggard, the incredible Dr.Jellinek or Bunky as we affectionately
know him and Seldon and all those dedicated people.
The
question arose, could an A.A. member get into education
or research or what not? Then ensued a fresh and great controversy
in A.A. which was not surprising because you must remember
that in that period we were like the people on Rickenbackers
raft, who would dare to rock us ever so little and precipitate
us back into the alcohol sea.
So,
frankly, we were afraid and as usual we had the radicals
and we had the conservatives and we had moderates on this
question of whether A.A. members could go into other enterprises
in this field. The conservatives said, "no, lets
keep it simple, lets mind our own business."
The radicals said, "Lets endorse anything that
looks like it will do any good, let the A.A. name be used
to raise money and to do whatever it can do for the whole
field," and the growing body of moderates took the
position, "let any A.A. member who feels the call go
into these related fields for if we are to do less it would
be a very antisocial outlook." So that is where the
Tradition finally sat and many were called and many were
chosen since that day to go into these related fields which
has now got to be so large in their promise that we of Alcoholics
Anonymous are getting down to our right size and we are
only now realizing that we are only a small part of a great
big picture. We are realizing again, afresh, that without
our friends, not only could we not have existed in the first
place but we could not have grown. We are getting a fresh
concept in A.A. of what our relations with the world and
all of these related enterprises should be. In other words,
we are growing up. In fact last year at St. Louis we were
bold enough to say we had come of age and that within Alcoholics
Anonymous the main outlines of the basis for recovery, of
the basis for unity and of the basis for service or function
were already evident
At
St. Louis I made talks upon each of those subjects which
largely concerned themselves about what A.A. had done about
these things but here we are in a much wider field and I
think that the sky is the limit. I think that I can say
without any reservation that what this Committee has done
with the aid of its great friends who are now legion
as anyone here can see. I think that this Committee has
been responsible for making more friends for Alcoholics
Anonymous and of doing a wider service in educating the
world on the gravity of this malady and what can be done
about it than any other single agency.
Im
awfully partial and maybe Im a little bias because
here sits the dean of all our ladies, my close, dear and
beloved friend. So speaking out of turn as a founder, I
want to convey to her in the presence of all of you the
best I can say of my great love and affection is thanks.
At
the close of things in St. Louis, I remember that I likened
A.A. to a cathedral style edifice whose corners now rested
across the earth. I remember saying that we can see on its
great floor the Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous and
there assembled maybe 150,000 sufferers and their families.
We have seen side walls go up, buttressed with the A.A.
Tradition and at St. Louis, when the elected Conference
took over from our Board of Trustees, the spire of service
was put into effect and its beacon light, the beacon light
of A.A. shone there beckoning to all the world.
I
realized as I sat here today that that was not a big enough
concept, for on the floor of the cathedral of the spirit
there should always be written the formula from whatever
source for release from alcoholism, whether it be a drug,
whether it be the psychiatric art, whether it be the ministrations
of this Committee. In other words, we who deal with this
problem are all in the same boat, all standing upon the
same floor. So lets bring to this floor the total
resources that can be brought to bear upon this problem
and let us not think of unity just in terms of the A.A.
Tradition. Let us think of unity among all those who work
in the field as the kind of unity that befits brotherhood
and sisterhood and a kinship in the common suffering. Let
us stand together in the spirit of service. If we do these
things, only then can we declare ourselves really come of
age. And only then, and I think this is a time not far of
f, I think we can say that the future, our future, the future
of this Committee, of A.A. and of the things that people
of good will are trying to do in this field will be completely
assured.
Thank
you.
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