This article is written by nationally recognized
historian and oft-quoted Alcoholics Anonymous archivist Mitchell K.
As research continues with the study of A.A.'s History,
we are going to make a slight departure from our series. The following
is an Editorial from the Cleveland, Ohio Central Bulletin dated
The Central Bulletin was A.A.'s first newsletter and
according to many A.A. Historians, contained some of the best early
writing relating to recovery from alcoholism. This Editorial, one
of a series on the Twelve Steps, is about the First Step.
The First Step
Vol. l - No. 3 -- December 1942
When we became members of A.A., we admitted that we were powerless
over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable.
This was the most important step in our getting dry. We had to admit
to ourselves that we were alcoholics. We had to recognize that all
our efforts to control our use of alcohol had failed. We had to recognize
that our periodic spells of not drinking had not given us the ability
to control the use of alcohol. We had to recognize that we could make
our lives manageable only when we had given up alcohol entirely.
Habits are tricky. They are the result of years of doing some thing
under certain conditions. They have associations that we often are
not aware of, which tend to lead us back to the path of that habit
despite our efforts. The Devil within us is the prompting of our nerves,
which leads us either to act without thinking or to think up excuses
for denying the lessons we have learned.
The single act of confession that made us dry is not enough to keep
us dry. The Devil within us prompts us anew in many mysterious ways.
The habit that prompts us is an unconscious body yearning, which calls
now and then for that "one little drink" that will line
up the tracks for twenty drinks and a blackout.
To stay dry we have to continue to recognize that we can escape alcoholism
only by not drinking.
There have been enough of us in the seven and a half years of A.A.
who have been tempted to believe that through A.A. one could regain
control over alcohol. The experiences of those thus tempted have been
Some men have had difficulty at the start, because they never really
admitted that they were powerless over alcohol. They had a mental
reservation. They kept debating with themselves and finally reached
the wrong answer.
But some men get into difficulty long after they think that their
troubles are over. They work hard. They pray. They attend meetings
and work with new candidates. But the Devil of old habit, sleeping
in the nerve cells, sneaks up on them and begins to whisper that they
have themselves under control and it would be all right to take a
drink now and then.
When a man tells himself "I know I can take a drink right now
and nothing will happen," his old habits and body yearnings are
prompting him to think dangerous thoughts.
That is the seed of disaster. Call the roll of those you know who
have had to have this bitter experience of learning all over again
that they were powerless over alcohol.
No Respecter of Geography
Strange too, how some members sometimes get the notion that because
they have gone off to another city that the rules no longer apply.
They couldn't drink in Cleveland, but they think it would be all right
in New York or Chicago or Detroit or Akron! Of course we are just
as powerless away from home as at home. Devil habit may prompt us
to forget that first lesson and may whisper in our ear that "no
one will know!" Well, call the roll, here too.
Wherever we are and regardless of the passage of time, we are alcoholics.
We are powerless over alcohol. We cannot use alcohol and successfully
manage our lives.
We learned that painfully. But our whiskey-hungry nerve cells have
sly ways of working on the mind. If we yield, disaster awaits us.
That first step is important always: at the beginning, after the
passage of time; at home and away from home. We are powerless over
More will be revealed