Willingness is a peculiar thing for me in that, over a period
of time, it seems to come, first with awareness, but then
with a feeling of discomfort, making me want to take some
action. As I reflected on taking the Eighth Step, my willingness
to make amends to others came as a desire for forgiveness,
of others and myself. I felt forgiveness toward others after
I became aware of my part in the difficulties of relationships.
I wanted to feel the peace and serenity described in the Promises.
From working the first seven Steps, I became aware of whom
I had harmed and that I had been my own worst enemy. In order
to restore my relationships with my fellow human beings, I
knew I would have to change. I wanted to learn to live in
harmony with myself and others so that I could also live in
emotional freedom. The beginning of the end to my isolation--from
my fellows and from God--came when I wrote my Eighth Step