Before my recovery from alcoholism began, laughter was one
of the most painful sounds I knew. I never laughed and
I felt that anyone else's laugher was directed at me! My self-pity
and anger denied me the simplest of pleasures of lightness
of heart. By the end of my drinking not even alcohol
could provoke a drunken giggle in me.
When my A.A. sponsor began
to laugh and point out my self-pity and ego-feeding deceptions,
I was annoyed and hurt, but it taught me to lighten up and
focus on my recovery. I soon learned to laugh at myself
and eventually I taught those I sponsor to laugh also.
Every day I ask God to help me stop taking myself too seriously.